I Will Dance with the Lord in the Beauty of Heaven"
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January 29, 2012 |
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Deaconess Eunok Park
I was dancing a waltz to the rhythm. My prosthetic left leg became a beautiful leg. I was dancing with grace. It was a breathtaking festival. It was my dream, which was amazingly vivid. I had this dream while our church held the Two-session Consecutive Special Daniel Prayer Meeting last year.
On the last day of the special prayer meeting after we offered 21-day prayer twice, we were having the award ceremony. Now it was time for Senior Pastor Dr. Jaerock Lee to pick up the grand prize winner. He read aloud the name written in the card which he had chosen. "1-1-2 Parish, 9th grader, Ga-yung Ryu!" It's my daughter's name. She walked to the altar shedding tears and I followed her with joy. We received a bountiful prize and had a picture taken with our Sr. Pastor Jaerock Lee. It was a moving moment that we could feel the love of God who remembers our lives and comforts us.
At a sweet age, I had my leg amputated because of my past sins of idol-worshipping
My family had worshiped idols from generation to generation. My great grandmother was a shaman and my mother also followed shamanism. Because of this, my family always suffered from diseases, accidents, and troubles, and I often had seizures. I even relied on alcohol due to serious state of depression since I was an 11th grader. I couldn't live a normal life. I even had a shaman perform a ritual of calling a spirit and letting the spirit in me. But I suddenly didn't want it, so I stopped it. Afterwards, I started to help shamans.
In the meantime, in 1986, my left leg began to hurt. I went to hospital and the test revealed a giant cell tumor. My left knee cap grew over time, which caused excruciating pain. I ended up having my left leg amputated. At the sweet age of 29, I became disabled with an artificial leg.
Two years later, an acquaintance introduced a man to me and I dated him. After five years of dating we got married despite family opposition. But he kept drinking alcohol after Ga-yung was born. He treated me quite harshly.
I met the living God and regained the happiness but…
In 1996, I couldn't stand him anymore that I ran away. I went with my daughter to my mother's house in Garibong-dong, Guro area. One day, I was in front of home with Ga-yung on my back. Someone came to me and asked, "Have you heard about Manmin Central Church?" He was Pastor Myung-sool Kim who was a parish pastor of the area where I lived at that time.
I went to the church and Manmin members warmly welcomed me. My group members especially helped me and supported me a lot with love and finances. When I was at home, I always felt lethargic and had negative thoughts. But I felt good in the church. My Christian life itself was filled with happiness because I could be set free from others' bias for the disabled, and my husband.
In addition, the hope for Heaven overwhelmed me while I listened to the sermon of Senior Pastor Dr. Lee. I couldn't get rid of compassion for my husband as I attended the church. I visited my husband and evangelized him. He finally registered with our church in February, 1998.
After my husband passed away, many diseases struck me
Afterwards, happiness seemed to come to my family for a short while. But my husband was diagnosed with liver cancer in 2000 and passed away one year later. The symptoms of depression reached the severe state again. I was captured by fear and terror day and night. I heard some voices saying, "You will die! You've contracted terminal diseases!" I couldn't sleep at all. My check-up result showed I suffered from chronic depression. My doctor told me I was under serious stress. I started to live taking pills for depression.
In November 2004, I received a check-up with support from the Disabled Welfare Center. Many other diseases like inactive tuberculosis and leucopenia were discovered. I realized all these were caused by the works of flesh that I did before I believed in God. And I received Dr. Lee's prayer for the sick and shook hands with him by faith. Then, I got better and had a retest again in 2005. Everything became normal then.
I was healed of chronic depression by the Word of God and prayer
But chronic depression wasn't healed. I thought that because my family worshipped idols from generation to generation, I couldn't destroy the thick walls of sins between God and me. I repented of idol-worshipping, ill-feelings, a hot-temper, judging and condemning others and I tried hard to live according to the truth. I really wanted to lie down because of lethargy, but I tried my best to work for God's kingdom. Even with my leg disability I cleaned the sanctuaries and washed the curtains of the sanctuaries. I endeavored to pile up the goodness before God by voluntarily working for His kingdom.
In 2010, Senior Pastor Dr. Lee told us to listen to his sermon series entitled 'The Seed of Life' ten times. He added it would bring to us amazing blessing. I obeyed his word. When I listened to it at first, I felt comfortable and I came to be able to digest food well. I also experienced a mysterious thing I can only explain as 'I smelled something fresh'. From then on, I could sleep without taking medication. The feeling of nervous breakdown, lethargy, and negative thoughts went away. The chronic depression disappeared. Hallelujah!
In her puberty, my daughter was changed by the love of the shepherd
One more reason for thanksgiving is my daughter. She changed a lot. After she became a 7th grader, she used to get irritated frequently and she was not to be able to lead a proper Christian life. But she started to change after Dr. Jaerock Lee had appeared in her dream last year when she was 9th grader. He prayed for her and smiled at her in the dream. Also, she transformed quickly through the Mini Crusade Dr. Lee has led after Sunday Evening Service every week. Ga-yeong said, "Dr. Lee made me feel the love of dad" and broke into a bright smile.
We now can have spiritual conversations leading happy Christian lives. I give all thanks and glory to Father God and Senior Pastor Dr. Lee who raised us with the love of the Lord.
She was attending Tuesday District Prayer Meeting and sharing the grace of God with her district members. It was precious time like that of a present for Deaconess Eun-ok Park.
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