"Feeling the Heart of God and More of His Love Makes Me Happy"
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Brother Suk June Moon, age 21, Young Adults' Mission
My father was assigned to a position in the U.S. when I was a third grader. My family had a hard time adapting to the new environment. But God comforted us with circular rainbows, and He helped me learn English quickly so I could receive President Obama Award given to excellent students twice in the third and fourth years after I arrived there. Four years later, my father was assigned to the headquarters in China and I attended an international school where 80% of students are Korean.
Unlike when I lived in the U.S., I spent much time playing games, listening to pop songs, and watching TV shows. My life was filled with the worldly pleasure through media. In summer of 2013, after I finished the tenth grade, I came to Korea. On Sunday, I greeted Senior Pastor and attended Daniel Prayer Meeting. While praying, Senior Pastor came to my heart and I burst into tears. His love was so great even to me who had sought the worldly pleasure. He touched my heart that was in despair.
Back in China, I started to pray every day and cut myself from doing worldly things. I enjoyed listening to sermons. It was not easy, however, to stay full of the Spirit alone away from the main church. Again, I began to watch TV shows and play games. I went back to just a basic believing life. Nevertheless, God blessed me to graduate from my high school as the top student (Photo).
In June, 2015, I came back to Korea for college entrance exams, but it was a burden for me going to church because I thought I had forsaken the grace of God. But many members welcomed me and I made friends in faith; thereby discovered the joy of faith. During Special Daniel Prayer Meeting held in September 2015, I prayed to cast away sinful nature so fervently that my shirt got wet with sweat and my hands hurt because I held them together so tightly.
In March 2016, I entered Yonsei University and have majored in Political Diplomacy. I prayed every night in the prayer room in the dormitory, listened to sermons, and studied hard. My friends went on blind dates, drank alcohol all night, and just hung out all the time. I thought they were living pitifully on the one hand, but on the other hand I found out that I was jealous of them because they looked so free. I could not dare forsake the Lord's love again, and hung in there with patience. I was filled with the Spirit in church on Sunday but I lost the fullness during the weekdays. It was repeated over and over again.
I could not pray fervently any more. I was so distressed that I cried walking alone and listening to praises. I asked God to help me in a struggle. I started to think about why I was so unhappy although I believe the truth gives us happiness. I thought deeply upon the reason why I started feeling burdened by the messages preached on the altar.
I found the answer, which was 'God-given happiness'. I realized God is warm-hearted so He wants His children to be happy. The messages of the truth are given for protecting and blessing us, not giving us a burden. He leads me with great consideration until I become perfect. I realized that the core of a Christian life is to know better and better about this love of God, but I had misunderstood God and felt troubled and ashamed.
After I realized this, my worried look turned into a smiling face. Since I found my own reason why I have to live by the Word of God, I have become a person who can intercede with heart for other souls who have a hard time. As I was leading such a happy Christian life, God blessed me to achieve the heart of spirit in October 2016. Hallelujah!
I give all thanks and glory to God who has led me to set the goal on by far the best value.
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